Two Lives

Most of the saturdays, I'm asked this question: Who Am I?

Am i somebody who is listening to Benny Benassi’s mix right now. Or am i somebody who wants to listen to Amir Khusro's qawwalis. Am i somebody who is enjoying Benassi and is fondly reminded of home. Or am i somebody who wants to let myself lose in an abstract world with Khusro. Am I my past, present or future.

Am I pseudo. Or am I someone who calls others pseudo. Am I someone who believes that others are pseudo or am I someone who understands why they are pseudo. Am I someone who expects love and affection or am I someone who parts with them. Am I someone who expects and demands a lot from people around or am I someone who is content with what he has. Am I someone what people think he is or am I someone who wants to be what people think he is. Am I myself or am I Mahesh Bhatt or Madonna. Am I someone who knows who he is or am I someone who is just trying to find out who he is because he is asked that most of the Saturdays.

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KJ:

The sun is setting. I switch off the computer again and the world goes back to being the countryside, the lowing of cattle, the voice of the shepherd bringing his sheep back to the pen beside the mill. I ask myself how I can exist in two different worlds in one day. But I have no answer ~ P Coelho

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KJ:

Things are so difficult! I want 2 just get totally lost into my world! I cant take this any longer…